I am just sooooooooo damn sad! And I don't know how to get out of this huge black hole..
In the last couple of weeks, I was dating about...10 guys...but after each date I felt even worse!
And suddenly I noticed, that it was just because I had a "extreme-crush" on another guy -.-
This wouldn't aaaaaaaactually be a problem IF...there where any feelings for me from him too Q.Q It all started on a very cal sunday afternoon. My best friend sent me a message like "You know, Pablo asked, if I want to go for a drink with him..But I don't have time for this! ASK HIM!!!" So I asked him - and WOOOW -> He said "yes!"
In the evening, we went out to the city (me, him and his "bff") We went to a nice Bar in the middle of the city, and the boys where playing "Darts" and every time, when he had to wayt 'till it was his turn to play..he came to me - and kissed me x3
blablabla
After an awesome evening, he came with me to my home..and stayed (here comes something, you propably don't wanna know xP)
The day after, I was kinda confused. So I wrote him a message (like: "uhm...well, do you feel anything MORE than friendship for me?") and after a few horrible hours he wrote: "No! Sorry"
This is why I wasn't active for the last time! It seems that stuff like this happens all the time, when I have a crush on someone T.T so i'll just stop having a crush on someone!

I feel really sorry for those, who are waiting for a trade part, or something like this! I'll try to finish it as soon as possible!!!